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About suicide hotlines: My thoughts 05.11.2018 00:58:36

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About suicide hotlines: My thoughts some hotlines: Crisis text line 741741, National Suicide hotline 1-800-273-8255, Trans Lifeline 877-565-8860, Trevor Project for LNGTQ 866-488-7386 After a 9 year old that came out as gay to his friend and then killed himself, there has been an increase in sending out the suicide hotline numbers. While I know [&#... mehr auf midnightdemons7.wordpress.com

NP idiot 24.10.2018 00:55:28

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I had an appt with a nurse practitioner that apparently got her license from a cracker jack box or maybe the Boston Globe. She was insistent on me having plantar fasciitis even though my PT ruled it out but didn’t I read the newspaper, not a medical journal, saying that plantar fasciitis is the new […]... mehr auf midnightdemons7.wordpress.com

about today’s therapy session 26.07.2018 03:02:29

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After I wrote my blog last night, I stayed up for maybe an hour and then I crashed. I was so wiped out and knew if I fought it, I was going to get overtired and then sleep whenever. So I basically fell asleep by 2130. But fucking stupid pain woke me at 0100. Again […]... mehr auf midnightdemons7.wordpress.com

Painsomnia and Midnight Demon Friday 22 June 18 22.06.2018 08:41:49

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I had started a blog on my laptop to publish yesterday but my brain kept getting foggy and couldn’t focus. I knew if I forced myself to write, it would come out crappy. Now it is after 2 am. I can’t sleep. Midnight Demon is out. Has been since 10 but had no writing urges. […]... mehr auf midnightdemons7.wordpress.com

What if I live? 20.07.2018 02:17:59

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What if I live? Been thinking seriously of ending my life in a few weeks. I plan dates. It helps me cope knowing I have some date to look forward to so I know the misery will end. Usually this happens in a state of despair when my pain levels are high and all I […]... mehr auf midnightdemons7.wordpress.com

CRPS Unpredictability 16.08.2018 06:33:25

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About 45 minutes ago, I have no idea what I did. I was in my normal fetal position with my feet on top of one another. I moved my bad CRPS foot into the curve of my good ankle and it felt like I was trying to snap it in half. I cried. I screamed […]... mehr auf midnightdemons7.wordpress.com

One More Light 18.07.2018 05:04:59

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One More Light ****expressions of suicide in this blog are just that. I am blowing off steam, expressing myself because keeping it in hurts too much**** This song by Linkin Park recently won an award for something I cannot remember. I saw it a couple of days ago. I am not surprised as when I […]... mehr auf midnightdemons7.wordpress.com

When they say you aren’t alone but you really are… 03.07.2018 06:55:12

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Past few months I’ve planned my ending. Now the time has come and it all comes down to me as to whether I go through with it. Sure, I unexpectedly got my pain meds that I waited 9 months for. But I am still in pain. Meds aren’t touching flares or making them bearable. My […]... mehr auf midnightdemons7.wordpress.com

Bad flare ruined my day 11.07.2018 05:38:05

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I had another bad pain night. I had to leave the house early 1) to avoid the high heat and 2) to get my scripts. When my med alarm went off, I wanted to throw my phone. I honestly didn’t want to get up. I used the bathroom after taking my meds and brushed my […]... mehr auf midnightdemons7.wordpress.com

What I started writing yesterday and stuff I did today 23.06.2018 02:08:20

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What I started writing yesterday and stuff I did today So this is what I wrote yesterday: I am so flipping enraged. Just came from seeing my pcp. He was interested in how I was doing with the med change. Jerk said he was extremely skeptical about opioids helping me at all. Well take this […]... mehr auf midnightdemons7.wordpress.com

Swear post warning offensive language here in 09.08.2018 07:38:33

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Swear post warning offensive language here in So about two hours ago, I was smelling something. Had no idea what the hell it was. I thought maybe a cord was burning, something was catching fire, checked all my wires and electrical stuff. Nothing. I go downstairs to see if my mother sprayed something, and it […]... mehr auf midnightdemons7.wordpress.com

Saturday Blog 7 July 18 08.07.2018 01:28:55

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Saturday Blog 7 July 18 This is just going to be free thoughts. Nothing really happened today other than I’ve had a migraine all day. It went away and then came back. My vision was blurred so I took meds before the pain hit then went to sleep. I’ve been in a funk. I never […]... mehr auf midnightdemons7.wordpress.com

painsomnia ramble 14.07.2018 11:19:28

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Painsomnia ramble It is almost 0500. I have yet to sleep. I thought I would write to see if that would help me fall asleep. I went to have something to eat and as I turned to walk back to the stairs, my ankle gave out on me. I couldn’t bear weight on it. It […]... mehr auf midnightdemons7.wordpress.com

pained and pissed off 15.07.2018 02:13:58

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Pained and pissed off I didn’t go to sleep till 0700. I woke up around 1000. I sorted out my meds and as there was a threat of increased pollen, I took an extra Allegra. I then made breakfast and coffee. I was so sleepy after the coffee that I decided to take a nap. […]... mehr auf midnightdemons7.wordpress.com

8 Aug 2018 09.08.2018 01:01:26

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8 Aug 2018 I had a good session with my therapist. I told him about the saga with my primary care office. I had to nurses, both beginning names with B that I called bubbleheads because that is what they are. After we talked about those idiots, I told him about how my suicidality was […]... mehr auf midnightdemons7.wordpress.com

About Therapists 25.09.2018 21:50:34

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About therapists I have been thinking about writing this for a while, just an overview about the many therapists I have had from all different degrees and orientations. I started off seeing a school counselor. She was getting her degree in counseling, though I am not sure if it was as a school counselor or […]... mehr auf midnightdemons7.wordpress.com

World Mental Health Day 11.10.2018 04:54:02

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This is going to be negative but I don’t care as it is my lived experience: I’ve been in therapy since I was 15 because I self-harmed. Seen a wide range of therapists from social workers to psychologists to psychiatrists. Most have ended treatment with me for various reasons. I am now on therapist number […]... mehr auf midnightdemons7.wordpress.com

World Mental Health Day 11.10.2018 04:54:02

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This is going to be negative but I don’t care as it is my lived experience: I’ve been in therapy since I was 15 because I self-harmed. Seen a wide range of therapists from social workers to psychologists to psychiatrists. Most have ended treatment with me for various reasons. I am now on therapist number […]... mehr auf midnightdemons7.wordpress.com

I think I am the Energizer Bunny. I keep going and going and going… 28.06.2018 02:15:01

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I think I am the Energizer Bunny. I keep going and going and going… I had set my med and wake alarm at the same time. One woke me up. I got a few hours sleep as my pain was keeping me up. My mood was too as I had hit the suicidal lows. I […]... mehr auf midnightdemons7.wordpress.com

PT, power outage, and other stuff 04.07.2018 00:27:52

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I finally was able to sleep around 0430. My med alarm went off around 9. I wanted to throw my phone. I shut the thing off and was drifting off back to sleep. I caught myself and then took my meds. I went downstairs to use the bathroom. I washed my face and for some […]... mehr auf midnightdemons7.wordpress.com

Foot is driving me nutso!! 09.07.2018 06:46:26

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I’ve been trying to sleep since 2100. My mother wasn’t up in her room yet. I called to see if she was ok as with the AC on, I can’t hear things. She was okay. Her sugars had stabilized. I got a blog that I read and wished I didn’t. It was about the lesbian […]... mehr auf midnightdemons7.wordpress.com

Still emotional, thanks gender dysphoria 21.08.2018 19:05:18

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My pcp is still a dickhead. I asked him if he would fill my female hormones and his nurse said sure what is it. I answered now I have to see the repro endo doc. He doesn’t want to do it. Fucking asshole. I’m still a wreck from yesterday and hate, absolutely HATE having to […]... mehr auf midnightdemons7.wordpress.com