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Just Two Extra 15.01.2019 15:50:43

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It took me several tries before I finally gave up and searched for the small address book that contains all of my passwords scribbled in…... mehr auf makemommygosomethingsomething.com

Look For The Sun 08.01.2019 13:23:31

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I find my peace in the sun. My body gravitates towards its vibrancy so the heat can slow the rattle in my bones. The rays…... mehr auf makemommygosomethingsomething.com

Feeling tired of feeling like shit 08.12.2018 08:21:12

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Feeling tired of feeling like shit I had a big flare up Wed after I came home from therapy. My foot pain was really bad. I swear the pain was on a scale of infinity. I was taking my meds but it didn’t seem to work. I was up all night and didn’t go to […]... mehr auf midnightdemons7.wordpress.com

Flare, writing from phone, bullshit of a day 06.12.2018 02:48:29

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Foot and ankle are in indescribable pain. The pain level is so high I don’t think a number can be assigned to it. It went out on me when I was going up to my room after dinner. I’ve been trying to control it. Nothing has helped and sound seems to be making it worse. […]... mehr auf midnightdemons7.wordpress.com

Baking Tuesday 05.12.2018 02:40:05

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Baking Tuesday I had back pain throughout the night. I just woke up with pain that immobilized me. I couldn’t move so getting something to stop the pain was difficult. I woke twice hurting. I was late in taking my morning meds because I fell back to sleep after I shut off the med alarm. […]... mehr auf midnightdemons7.wordpress.com

Sunday Blog 2 Dec 2018 03.12.2018 00:08:55

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Sunday Blog 2 Dec 2018 It has been three days since I lowered my mood stabilizer dose by 300 mg and I am feeling better with each passing day. The first couple of days were rough, especially as Friday I had a flare that caused me to pretty much sleep all day yesterday. Today I […]... mehr auf midnightdemons7.wordpress.com

When you want to sleep but your brain has a million things to think of so you write a blog! 01.12.2018 01:05:29

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When you want to sleep but your brain has a million things to think of so you write a blog! I had a good appointment with my psychiatrist today. We went back and forth over what might be the cause of my sodium being low or rather me feeling crummy (she too, doesn’t think it […]... mehr auf midnightdemons7.wordpress.com

Another blog by phone: doctors suck when they don’t know what is wrong 30.11.2018 02:14:31

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Once again I am a ping pong ball between my psychiatrist and PCP. He doesn’t think my feeling crummy and fatigue has anything to do with my sodium levels even though I explained to the jerk that when I was 2 points lower I felt sick. Now I feel sicker because the damn sodium is […]... mehr auf midnightdemons7.wordpress.com

Fatigue is killing me!!! 27.11.2018 20:26:40

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Fatigue is killing me!!! My alarm went off and I took my meds. I checked to see when my delivery would be here. It said in about 40 minutes. I quickly made some coffee and had a few sips when the truck came. The delivery didn’t include a few bottle of Powerade and the buffalo […]... mehr auf midnightdemons7.wordpress.com

Lots of things and crashing after 27.11.2018 01:22:39

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Lots of things and crashing after I woke up around 5 for some reason that I don’t remember now. I think I was in pain as I remember taking a pain med. I was hoping this was not going to cause me to be in bed all day as I really wanted to change my […]... mehr auf midnightdemons7.wordpress.com

blur of days 26.11.2018 00:04:14

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Blur of days Friday night I was in a flare. I didn’t get to sleep till 0600 and then I slept all day. I only went downstairs twice to pee. I’ve been living off of protein bars and pie. I mostly been drinking Powerade. Today I was just tired and tried to sleep but my […]... mehr auf midnightdemons7.wordpress.com

The I should have stayed in bed day 24.11.2018 02:21:04

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The I should have stayed in bed day I woke up at 6 with my entire body feeling like spaghetti. I knew if I just laid there it would get worse so I sat up to take an Ativan before it could. When I sat up, my damn foot exploded. It was three hours before […]... mehr auf midnightdemons7.wordpress.com

Therapy, fatigue, and still feeling like shit 21.11.2018 22:29:24

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I managed a shower today. It kind wore me out but I was determined to see my therapist. The bus didn’t give a shit what I had planned as it was like a fucking half hour late. Starbucks didn’t have eggnog so I just had a mocha. I forgot extra shots. Doubt they would have […]... mehr auf midnightdemons7.wordpress.com

Sadness over madness 20.11.2018 04:16:48

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There was yet another shooting in the US. A hospital in Chicago lost an ER doc because of her fiance. We don’t know details because he is dead. An officer and a pharmacy tech were also killed. I am so sad over this. Docs are mad continues to happen while those in government do nothing. […]... mehr auf midnightdemons7.wordpress.com

A day of reading 19.11.2018 04:32:48

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A day of reading I wanted to finish Camino Island by John Grisham today and I did it. I had problems with my Kindle since last week as they did an update and they messed up my SD card, well, not really. The update made it so the Kindle didn’t recognize the SD card so […]... mehr auf midnightdemons7.wordpress.com

Found out cause of fatigue 17.11.2018 20:38:12

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Had my repeat blood work and urine tests done on Thursday. My sodium level was lower than it was on Tuesday. My doc called me around 8 am but I couldn’t get the phone in time. When I called back. The transcript from my voicemail was incorrect. Anyway he sent me a message explaining what […]... mehr auf midnightdemons7.wordpress.com

Transition day 42 16.11.2018 07:04:07

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This is really day 43 but close enough. I noticed I have lapsed on my weekly writing. Sorry about that. Not much changes. I have some voice changes, sideburns are thicker. Mustache is darker. Facial changes still coming. I am losing my feminine looks. I just need to lose 40 pounds. No idea how to […]... mehr auf midnightdemons7.wordpress.com

Night out 21.07.2018 04:02:24

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I had another rough night sleeping and woke up via my med alarm, took meds, and went back to sleep. I got up around noon and made something to eat. I also made a cup of tea. I would be having espresso so I didn’t want to make coffee. I checked on my niece but […]... mehr auf midnightdemons7.wordpress.com

Should be a warning for changing sheets when you have chronic pain 24.06.2018 01:51:33

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Should be a warning for changing sheets when you have chronic pain I literally spent the day changing my bed. I started by washing my fleece Red Sox blanket. It is more of a throw but it covers me well and is nice and cozy. While it was in the washer, I had breakfast, made […]... mehr auf midnightdemons7.wordpress.com

hot and sleepy day 09.07.2018 00:23:44

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Hot and sleepy day I woke up around 0100. I didn’t fall back to sleep until after 0300. I was playing with the AC settings so that it would be cool but not freezing in my room. I think I shut my AC off as I woke up hot before my med alarm went off. […]... mehr auf midnightdemons7.wordpress.com

27 Aug 18 28.08.2018 03:00:12

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27 Aug 18 I am taking the bus three fricken hours before my appointment and I still don’t have time to write in my journal after I get my drink and maybe some food at Starbucks. I have like maybe a half hour. Damn bus is just not coming at the time I need it […]... mehr auf midnightdemons7.wordpress.com

9 Aug 2018 10.08.2018 01:23:54

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9 Aug 2018 I had wanted today to be a self-care day. I made breakfast and coffee, then went up to my room, hoping to finish Norse Mythology. I have a few chapter left. I played with my phone and then settled down to read. I read one chapter when the coffee made me really […]... mehr auf midnightdemons7.wordpress.com

Another blog by phone 14.11.2018 20:53:43

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I am still feeling crappy. Yesterday in was so exhausted after seeing the doc, I slept, had dinner, took my meds. And pretty much slept through the night. I woke up once to pee and take a horrible selfie. I felt like taking the shot of T then but i was too tired to be […]... mehr auf midnightdemons7.wordpress.com

Sunday 12 Aug 2018 13.08.2018 01:29:10

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Sunday 12 Aug 18 I did a lot today when I didn’t want to. I planned on doing the laundry and then resting the rest of the day. My mother decided to call me before 10 am to do it as she emptied the hamper in the bathroom but couldn’t pick up the clothes to […]... mehr auf midnightdemons7.wordpress.com

Sunday blog 5 Aug 18 06.08.2018 02:54:52

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Sunday Blog 5 Aug 2018 I’m listening to 1989 again. I spent most of the day sleeping because I woke up around 0530 in pain. Tomorrow I got to go to the pharmacy and get more meds. I can’t fill the ER ones but I think I can fill the ones I take as PRN. […]... mehr auf midnightdemons7.wordpress.com

just a similar day 18.07.2018 23:24:09

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Just a similar day I saw my mother this morning. She was in pain but doing better than I expected. She will be in the hospital till Friday and then go to rehab. I think she is there just to keep an eye on her sugars and such. Last night I really missed her and […]... mehr auf midnightdemons7.wordpress.com

Busy day 25.07.2018 02:08:25

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Busy day My cousin called me around noonish wanting to know if I still needed to go to Stop and Shop. I said I did. I only had to pick up a few things. My mother also wanted me to return the bottles and can for recycles. I get there and there is an elderly […]... mehr auf midnightdemons7.wordpress.com

Saturday Blog 4 Aug 2018 05.08.2018 01:19:41

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Saturday Blog 4 Aug 2018 I woke up in pain around 0800. I decided to take my morning meds early. I used the bathroom. My mother was eating breakfast and my sister was doing something in the kitchen. She was walking all around so I have no idea what she was doing. I went back […]... mehr auf midnightdemons7.wordpress.com

3 Aug 2018 04.08.2018 01:51:08

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3 Aug 2018 I left my house around 920 and didn’t come home till around 1645. It was a long day. I made breakfast and packed a lunch. I didn’t finish it all so I might have it for dinner. I wore my black air cast in a white sneaker and my white AFO in […]... mehr auf midnightdemons7.wordpress.com

2 Aug 2018 04.08.2018 01:51:08

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2 Aug 2018 I left my house around 920 and didn’t come home till around 1645. It was a long day. I made breakfast and packed a lunch. I didn’t finish it all so I might have it for dinner. I wore my black air cast in a white sneaker and my white AFO in […]... mehr auf midnightdemons7.wordpress.com

Lazy Friday 14.07.2018 00:28:12

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Lazy Friday I had a hard time sleeping. I was feeling really achy and couldn’t get comfortable. Around 7 I decided to take my morning meds early so I could sleep. I slept till noon. I wanted coffee and made some. I then made something to eat. I kind of overcooked my eggs as I […]... mehr auf midnightdemons7.wordpress.com

about today’s therapy session 26.07.2018 03:02:29

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After I wrote my blog last night, I stayed up for maybe an hour and then I crashed. I was so wiped out and knew if I fought it, I was going to get overtired and then sleep whenever. So I basically fell asleep by 2130. But fucking stupid pain woke me at 0100. Again […]... mehr auf midnightdemons7.wordpress.com

Friday Mayhem 07.07.2018 03:09:40

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Friday mayhem I went to sleep early but that didn’t help keep me asleep all night. I woke up several times. Then my med alarm went off. I took my meds. Then slept on and off the next couple of hours. I needed to shave and shower. I wanted to be up around 11 so […]... mehr auf midnightdemons7.wordpress.com

Saturday blog 30-June-18 01.07.2018 03:50:31

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Saturday blog 30 June 18 I woke up at night after a shitty night. Pain kept me up till around 0300 or after. I had taken some Benadryl and that seemed to work. I had looked up cornbread pancakes which I had planned to make, except I fell back to sleep and didn’t get up […]... mehr auf midnightdemons7.wordpress.com

Sunday Blog 15-July-18 16.07.2018 00:28:18

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Sunday Blog 15 July 2018 Only thing I did today was go to Walgreens. My sister made dinner so after I showered, I went downstairs. I didn’t want to go because I didn’t want a flare but my niece called and I couldn’t say no. Food was good. I had a cappuccino after I ate. […]... mehr auf midnightdemons7.wordpress.com

Sunday Blog 22 July 18 23.07.2018 02:10:56

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Sunday blog 22 July 2018 I was having some kind of dream and then in the dream, my ankle started hurting me. I woke up and sure enough, my ankle was hurting. I don’t know why. It was raining so maybe that was the reason. Rain is supposed to happen most of the week. I […]... mehr auf midnightdemons7.wordpress.com

randomness 23 July 18 24.07.2018 02:10:33

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Randomness 23 July 18 I sent off an email to my psychiatrist sometime last night as I was in so much pain and I was angry. I told her I didn’t want to see her and to say this email is notification of cancellation of our next appt. I eventually went to sleep sometime after […]... mehr auf midnightdemons7.wordpress.com

24 Aug 18 25.08.2018 00:19:14

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24 Aug 18 I have had a not so great day. My alarm went off a couple of time, I am not sure. I finally shut it off but had no intention to get up. Then my med alarm went off and shit, had to get up because I had to catch the 930 bus. […]... mehr auf midnightdemons7.wordpress.com

30 Aug 18 31.08.2018 01:33:32

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30 Aug 18 I am in a flare right now because I helped my mother with dinner. I was in my room and she yelled for me so I kind of ran down the stairs to make sure she was alright. Next thing I know she is telling me to do this and that for […]... mehr auf midnightdemons7.wordpress.com

Painsomnia and Midnight Demon Friday 22 June 18 22.06.2018 08:41:49

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I had started a blog on my laptop to publish yesterday but my brain kept getting foggy and couldn’t focus. I knew if I forced myself to write, it would come out crappy. Now it is after 2 am. I can’t sleep. Midnight Demon is out. Has been since 10 but had no writing urges. […]... mehr auf midnightdemons7.wordpress.com