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Night out 21.07.2018 04:02:24

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I had another rough night sleeping and woke up via my med alarm, took meds, and went back to sleep. I got up around noon and made something to eat. I also made a cup of tea. I would be having espresso so I didn’t want to make coffee. I checked on my niece but […]... mehr auf midnightdemons7.wordpress.com

I Just Want Time And Space 10.05.2018 13:38:50

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I’ve been playing this game on my phone that my son downloaded “for me”. It’s a very simple yet absolutely frustrating word unscrambling game. I’m…... mehr auf makemommygosomethingsomething.com

Day Dates And Paints 29.05.2018 20:49:11

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A psychologist who is much younger than I had quietly asked me on the other end of the phone, “Have you gone on a date…... mehr auf makemommygosomethingsomething.com

Painsomnia and Midnight Demon Friday 22 June 18 22.06.2018 08:41:49

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I had started a blog on my laptop to publish yesterday but my brain kept getting foggy and couldn’t focus. I knew if I forced myself to write, it would come out crappy. Now it is after 2 am. I can’t sleep. Midnight Demon is out. Has been since 10 but had no writing urges. […]... mehr auf midnightdemons7.wordpress.com

CRPS Unpredictability 16.08.2018 06:33:25

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About 45 minutes ago, I have no idea what I did. I was in my normal fetal position with my feet on top of one another. I moved my bad CRPS foot into the curve of my good ankle and it felt like I was trying to snap it in half. I cried. I screamed […]... mehr auf midnightdemons7.wordpress.com

When they say you aren’t alone but you really are… 03.07.2018 06:55:12

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Past few months I’ve planned my ending. Now the time has come and it all comes down to me as to whether I go through with it. Sure, I unexpectedly got my pain meds that I waited 9 months for. But I am still in pain. Meds aren’t touching flares or making them bearable. My […]... mehr auf midnightdemons7.wordpress.com

Bad flare ruined my day 11.07.2018 05:38:05

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I had another bad pain night. I had to leave the house early 1) to avoid the high heat and 2) to get my scripts. When my med alarm went off, I wanted to throw my phone. I honestly didn’t want to get up. I used the bathroom after taking my meds and brushed my […]... mehr auf midnightdemons7.wordpress.com

Such A Big Four Letter Word 07.02.2018 16:24:42

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Good stuff still happens even when it seems like the very bad stuff you’ve been trying to shake off has shackled itself around your waist.…... mehr auf makemommygosomethingsomething.com

I Left 07.05.2018 19:20:23

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There have been moments in my life when its all felt too much –   This is undeniably one of these moments.   When my…... mehr auf makemommygosomethingsomething.com

Found out cause of fatigue 17.11.2018 20:38:12

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Had my repeat blood work and urine tests done on Thursday. My sodium level was lower than it was on Tuesday. My doc called me around 8 am but I couldn’t get the phone in time. When I called back. The transcript from my voicemail was incorrect. Anyway he sent me a message explaining what […]... mehr auf midnightdemons7.wordpress.com

Flare, writing from phone, bullshit of a day 06.12.2018 02:48:29

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Foot and ankle are in indescribable pain. The pain level is so high I don’t think a number can be assigned to it. It went out on me when I was going up to my room after dinner. I’ve been trying to control it. Nothing has helped and sound seems to be making it worse. […]... mehr auf midnightdemons7.wordpress.com

More tiredness that is sticking around 13.11.2018 05:26:44

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So over the weekend I emailed my repro endo doc to say I’ve been really tired and described how tired I was and could it be the testosterone? She said most certainly not. I should see my pcp. Well today has been a real fucking day so why should calling my pcp be easy. He […]... mehr auf midnightdemons7.wordpress.com

Ah, what is a little psychosis and a lot of anger 19.09.2018 06:32:50

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**may contain errors as I am on my phone** My day started ok. It was raining pretty hard so I canceled PT. I tried to reschedule but there was nothing open the rest of the week. Then FB had this you got 4,000 like thing. The 1st pic was my legal document stating my legal […]... mehr auf midnightdemons7.wordpress.com

Half Spin In The Parking Lot 19.09.2018 13:59:03

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September came out of nowhere and then I woke up one morning and depression was there. It’s like it just knew that it was time…... mehr auf makemommygosomethingsomething.com

Another blog by phone 14.11.2018 20:53:43

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I am still feeling crappy. Yesterday in was so exhausted after seeing the doc, I slept, had dinner, took my meds. And pretty much slept through the night. I woke up once to pee and take a horrible selfie. I felt like taking the shot of T then but i was too tired to be […]... mehr auf midnightdemons7.wordpress.com

No One Notices Mom Until She’s Paper Thin 09.04.2018 16:46:26

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I am tired of the house being a mess and saying, “This isn’t mine. This doesn’t belong here.” Both of their big ears work. They mumble…... mehr auf makemommygosomethingsomething.com

Guess who… 02.10.2018 01:48:00

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I was able to shave and shower this morning. I had a ton of time before I had to leave. I took my time getting ready. I guess the bus I needed to take to the Square was delayed as the other bus came. I decided to take it rather than wait. I figured in […]... mehr auf midnightdemons7.wordpress.com

Those Worlds Are Far Better 26.09.2018 16:47:12

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I bought a third potted mum so that I could fit in with all the new neighbourhood  housewives BUT I bought them all in odd…... mehr auf makemommygosomethingsomething.com

Another blog by phone: doctors suck when they don’t know what is wrong 30.11.2018 02:14:31

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Once again I am a ping pong ball between my psychiatrist and PCP. He doesn’t think my feeling crummy and fatigue has anything to do with my sodium levels even though I explained to the jerk that when I was 2 points lower I felt sick. Now I feel sicker because the damn sodium is […]... mehr auf midnightdemons7.wordpress.com

I Held My Breath 24.05.2018 19:25:47

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Aside from the large clump of bangs that mask my five-head and a few wisps that tickle the sides of my cheeks, my hair is…... mehr auf makemommygosomethingsomething.com

Foot is driving me nutso!! 09.07.2018 06:46:26

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I’ve been trying to sleep since 2100. My mother wasn’t up in her room yet. I called to see if she was ok as with the AC on, I can’t hear things. She was okay. Her sugars had stabilized. I got a blog that I read and wished I didn’t. It was about the lesbian […]... mehr auf midnightdemons7.wordpress.com

Still emotional, thanks gender dysphoria 21.08.2018 19:05:18

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My pcp is still a dickhead. I asked him if he would fill my female hormones and his nurse said sure what is it. I answered now I have to see the repro endo doc. He doesn’t want to do it. Fucking asshole. I’m still a wreck from yesterday and hate, absolutely HATE having to […]... mehr auf midnightdemons7.wordpress.com

Sadness over madness 20.11.2018 04:16:48

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There was yet another shooting in the US. A hospital in Chicago lost an ER doc because of her fiance. We don’t know details because he is dead. An officer and a pharmacy tech were also killed. I am so sad over this. Docs are mad continues to happen while those in government do nothing. […]... mehr auf midnightdemons7.wordpress.com

Therapy, fatigue, and still feeling like shit 21.11.2018 22:29:24

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I managed a shower today. It kind wore me out but I was determined to see my therapist. The bus didn’t give a shit what I had planned as it was like a fucking half hour late. Starbucks didn’t have eggnog so I just had a mocha. I forgot extra shots. Doubt they would have […]... mehr auf midnightdemons7.wordpress.com

Life Is Most Prickliest 15.10.2018 13:17:05

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I’m convinced that life is the most prickliest bastard when bipolar depression hits. Things always go wrong when you’re busy trying to peel yourself up…... mehr auf makemommygosomethingsomething.com

Feeling tired of feeling like shit 08.12.2018 08:21:12

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Feeling tired of feeling like shit I had a big flare up Wed after I came home from therapy. My foot pain was really bad. I swear the pain was on a scale of infinity. I was taking my meds but it didn’t seem to work. I was up all night and didn’t go to […]... mehr auf midnightdemons7.wordpress.com

15 Year Old Tree 21.11.2018 15:49:22

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Over Bing Crosby, over Frosty The Snowman, over Deck The Halls, over Dominick The Donkey and wine and beer and fizzy pop and snacks –…... mehr auf makemommygosomethingsomething.com